Living In The Moment

I have a hard time living in the moment. I am always thinking about the future - will I like living in California, will I ever get pregnant again, will Baby Girl enjoy her new home, how about Harley?, what will I do when DH deploys and I am left alone to take care of the family?

When BG is playing around so sweetly, while I am physically there, many times my mind is elsewhere. I am worrying about this house sale, or the movers coming, or this or that. Then sometimes I stop and look at her and remind myself that she is this age only once - that once is NOW. I had better enjoy it and soak it up. She will only kiss and hug her stuffed animals for so long...I enjoy watching her carry them around and rearrange them from the couch to the chair to the table. Soon enough those toys that she loves so much will end up at the bottom of her toy chest - and later (in many years) in the basement of our house. That is where all my treasures are...in the basement of my parents house.

Just being gone for 5 days this past week, BG seemed somehow different to me. More grown up. I know that sounds very silly....as it was only 5 days. But it really made me realize JUST how quickly they actually change. She was doing new things already - things she didnt do before we left on our trip. She even looked more grown up (but I know THAT part is all in my head!!).

With so much in our lives it is difficult to live in the moment, but it is definately something I really want to work on. I want to savor it...every last sweet moment that she gives me.