With hubby being deployed for a month, I really am starting to wonder just how I will survive a year long deployment. Since he is at a joint command, he deploys here and there....for a few weeks at a time. This trip has been pretty long. But I guess I look at it as some sort of preparation for "the long one" that is to come. I know women do it ALL the time, many of them multiple times. And the fact is, alot of them are younger than I am and with more children. If they can do it, so can I, right?
It is just that these last few days have been mentally trying for me. Not for any one particular reason....but rather for many. Our house being on the market, Baby Girl has a constant cough, Harly is depressed about dad being away, the Xterra is acting up, and to to it all of we are BORED. There are only so many trips to Publix and Super Target that I can take....I wish we lived closer to the aquarium and the zoo....things that may entertain Baby Girl a little bit more than browsing the isles of the local stores.
Having to keep this house up with a toddler and a dog has proved to be very difficult. I am not a naturally tidy person. I like a little clutter in my life (much to the dismay of my hubby). But now that we are selling, it is like I am not even living in my own house anymore. I am constantly having to clean up after B.G....and once I am done putting something away, there she is getting into something else during her little adventures. By the time she is in bed, all I want to do it go to bed myself....but on the other hand I have a desire to just RELAX and veg in front of the TV! Usually, the bed wins b/c I am even too tired to stare at the TV.
I miss my hubby helping clean up the dinner, give BG bath time fun, I miss our evening walks and our cuddling on the couch after the baby is in bed. Only 2 1/2 more weeks to go until I get him back and we can get back to semi-normal.
